I hate having to pay bills and crap. I've not been able to get my computer fixed until recently, and it's now running slow as hell! Anyways, too much information to update and I'm not going to finish it in just this journal entry, so I'll spread it out over a few... weeks. I have a job and it's alright so I'm doing fine I guess.

Oh, and just recently... 22 years old!!! October 28, 2009 I turned 22 and I'm still sober...


I guess I'll have to update with just sketches for now, if I can find them all. I am trying to have Photoshop installed again so that I can continue some of my computer art. And just for the record, Silent Wish and Lost Dimension was put on hold for a while as I got a rather interesting request for a series, now entitled Picture Perfect World. Perfect is crossed out because it's not a "perfect" world, so I guess you can tell a little about what the series is for. Anywho, that'll all be in an update all its own. It'll only be about ten chapters, so it's not going to be too long of a series, like Lost Dimension or Silent Wish.

Once again, I sincerely apologize for being so late on my updates and uploads, but I haven't had the money to get my piece-o-crap laptop fixed, nor have I had the money to get a new PC. Gomenasai...


UPDATE:
Just for the record, I might be passing off some of my series to other people, because having like 30 of them isn't helping my brain out at all. More updates to come...

All I can say is... wow. So long it's been... my laptop really REALLY doesn't work now... I made sure of that. Too much hasn't happened... my life is boring and it sucks. I just hope everybody else out there has been doing good.

Well, the computer thing isn't working out due to me and my "ineligibility" to get a job... @Work basically said they can't do anything to help me... that's a real awesome thing to say. All I can do is put my application in and my resume and pray... which sucks. Oh well, back to reality...

I'm just going to update some sketches I've completed in the past few months, me and my friend are having... difficulties with our friendship. I'm at the library right now so... yeah. Boring... life...


I've joined Facebook, if anybody is interested in that kind of stuff... oh well... By the way, I don't really know how to continue Silent Wish. I've come up with the perfect ending, but I can't get to that ending because I have a whole month of events to fill into the storyline... writer's block sucks. Lost Dimension, however, I've planned from start to finish... but writing it is the problem. I type at least 40 wpm, so asking me to manually WRITE it out instead of TYPE it out is like telling my brother not to eat...

Well, as you all know I've been having problems with my laptop for quite some time now, and it's come to an end recently. About a month ago my laptop was annoying to high hell, so I decided to take it to see if it could get fixed. I got it back around the ...4th I believe? Anywho, it was still very buggy. That wasn't the problem, though. I needed to finish a very important drawing and post it up here from my Photoshop, but the computer started to drag me down more. Again, I'm sincerely sorry that I couldn't make the 10th deadline for the Secret Santa Claus thing... but I would like to make it up for the person who will probably not get it until I get another computer (desktop damnit!!!).

It would not recognize the AC Adapter to charge it, nor would the mousepad work. Also, during the fix-it-myself because the warranty is expired and I already paid over a hundred of dollars to get it "fixed", the built-in keyboard ceased fuctioning. This laptop has got to be the worst thing that I've ever bought in my life. As I've said before, I'm at a friend's place typing this now and he's pretty much an asshole because he wouldn't let me post an UPDATE for everybody... so I forced him! I feel pathetic now, very useless and hated. It wasn't my fault I haven't been on for a while, and I just wanted everybody out there to know that. I might not be able to come back on for weeks, until my new desktop becomes a reality. Just so everybody knows, I'm still working on my stories and sketches. There'll be a lot of posts when I get back, so I hope there won't be any harsh feelings between us all. But I can understand... after all, I waited till the last week to finish the Secret Santa picture, I haven't posted in soo long... I just wish I had more time...

Why the hell does this happen to me, though? This'll be the third computer that I've destroyed in the last two years... not counting my still-broken 360. My life is just bullshit!!!

I had just reformatted my hard drive twice in the past two weeks, and now I caught a trojan... THIS SUCKS!!! I'm going to be backed up on a lot of art and shit, but this SUCKS!!!!!!!!!! I bet this damned thing thinks that since I graduated I don't need it anymore, the son of a bitch! I'm about to throw it out the damned window!!!

Sorry for that. My stories are going to be a bit backed up and shit, so just be a little patient. The funny thing is, I wasn't even surfing the 'net. I was playing an online game and it just exited it and popped up... oh well. I'll post back in a bit... probably late tonight as usual. I apoligize once more. Sumimasen...


UPDATE:
I now have everything up and running, except for fucking Photoshop again, which I have to go and get once again...

I'll work on my series until then, which means bad news for you.

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I had the unusual experience of looking back at my life so far and where it is going. Unfortunately for you, it means an unwanted journal entry that's on the same level of my MySpace page from a year ago, that I stopped updating since joining deviantART. Here goes nothing...

I didn't realize how depressing my life really is and how many mistakes I've made, and I'm still making! I really wish there was a such thing as a time machine, maybe my life wouldn't be so screwed up. But, then again, there's all these things about time paradoxes and universal obliveration and stuff, so maybe I should just walk quietly into the night. It also makes me want to ask everybody this: Why is it that love can't defeat hate? If true love indeed conquers all, why am I the one that sits all by my lonesome? Oh well, before I get all too dramatic, I'd better calm down a bit.

Oh well, sketches and chapters will be up soon, so look foreward to it. For those of you whom are too lazy (you know who you are) to ask me for my myspace or to look for it yourself, here it is:
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Alone1sAgain (the poem-ish thing)
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Love is Hard (poem)
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Fear (poem)
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And more than you would ever want to know about me, not updated since June 9th of this year...
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Do not post about me and my problems if anybody looks at it. It will be taken down on New Years Day, so get your eyesore now. Also, if any of you on deviantART looks at it, do not think anything about it. In fact, my life is much better since then, so don't worry.




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